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virtualvoyages) wrote2012-01-09 09:33 pm
virtualvoyages) wrote2012-01-09 09:33 pm
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Being a Jedi is a lot harder than I thought.
I know we're supposed to be serene, never passionate, but forbidding love seems wrong. Love is a good thing, isn't it? And if you don't love - if you don't care about people - isn't that the Dark Side? I don't understand.
And some of the masters are... not what I expected. They're so judgmental and... I don't know. They're more like bureaucrats than scholars. It doesn't feel right.
I'm so confused.
Why doesn't the council allow us to properly protect the Twi'lek pilgrims? I know they're here illegally, but that shouldn't matter. And if we had, then one wouldn't have stolen Rajivari's holocron and be going down the dark path. Doesn't that make it our fault? Something we should have prevented?
I will have to meditate. Or ask my master. Or one of the other masters who are more like what I expected. Maybe Master Quilb or Master Till'in. Maybe they can make it seem right.
And some of the masters are... not what I expected. They're so judgmental and... I don't know. They're more like bureaucrats than scholars. It doesn't feel right.
I'm so confused.
Why doesn't the council allow us to properly protect the Twi'lek pilgrims? I know they're here illegally, but that shouldn't matter. And if we had, then one wouldn't have stolen Rajivari's holocron and be going down the dark path. Doesn't that make it our fault? Something we should have prevented?
I will have to meditate. Or ask my master. Or one of the other masters who are more like what I expected. Maybe Master Quilb or Master Till'in. Maybe they can make it seem right.